I've been realizing that who I am in Christ, who I've been called to be as His servant, is not who I am this moment, and I've repented "in dust and ashes." Shall I press the magic prayer button and suddenly walk in my "full measure"? As I repented, leaning on the life of Christ to now live by, does that mean that my outward abilities will match up with who I find myself to be in Christ? It hasn't worked that way so far. I'm about to run a Spartan race far beyond my ability. When I signed up for this 10k with 25 obstacles it was impossible but was a vision of where I think I should be at with exercise and health. I wanted to be able to run a 10k at a 10min pace - not an amazing thing but impossible not long ago. I wanted to be able to do 100 pushups, 10 pullups, and sit-ups, etc. When I started out toward this I could run a mile and that was after a long while of training up to it. Now I run a 5k in the mornings with little G just for half of a p